shut up and put
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that's what you get for waking up in vegas.
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Hi. People call me farah.
I like to doodle lyrics. and quotes. I first loved on March 8,1993. Yes, I'm going to be a senior in high school this year. SPM sucks balls. Why can't they just leave us alone?. Taylor Lautner? he's my husband.. I like to read. Books are cool.. No, contrary to popular belief, I am neither a nerd nor am I heartless. i can be am just dorky and sarcastic sometimes. i like music because i can relate to the lyrics.

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Monday, August 31, 2009 5:42 pm
Shite. School is reopening tomorrow. And since I wake up at 5 for Sahur, I can't go back to sleep afterwards. So, bloody unfair.

-sigh-

And I have been having stomachaches every single day. I don't eat a lot but maybe it's the food I eat. I have a sensitive digestive system. Fortunately, it doesn't hurt badly enough for me to roll around on the floor and cry or something.

Back to routines.
Back to stress.
Back to seeing people you hate.
Back to studying.
Back to homework.
Back to laughter.
Back to disagreement.


Back to school.

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12:03 am
HAPPY MERDEKA PEOPLE! And for the SAB gang, only Fatin Hamid is online with me on MSN right now.

To the Melawati/TS gang, only Karin is online. And Karin and I are unfortunately, always together onlining on MSN on merdeka eve//merdeka day. This is unfortunate. And we were together during the angkasawan launch too.

HAIH. Does this mean Karin and I are fated to be party friends? =O


HAHAHAHA

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Sunday, August 30, 2009 4:21 pm
What an apt lyric for my current state of umm... health? I'm having a badd tummy ache. And those who immediately jump to conclusions thinking it's the "monthly visit", no it ain't.

Must be the chilli-vinegar sauce I ate with Ayam A1's black pepper roast chicken. I was too excited and ate 3/4 of the small container myself.

Shoulda known.


School starts in two days kan kan kan? DAMN.

BENCI.

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Friday, August 28, 2009 8:16 pm
Ok, like seriously. This is funny. Just now, I went for my guitar replacement class for tonight and two weeks ago when the teacher couldn't make it right. We moved from PWT's 1234 coz he said the chorus is gonna kill me. So he told me what chords we were using, then showed me what it sounds like.

My first thought? Tell me this ain't happening.

Yep, it's The Climb people. I truly loathe the song if you didn't know that yet. I had to endure 70 minutes of learning a song I hate most. Huhhhhh. So then my mum comes to pick me up right? The moment my butt landed on the seat of her red Proton Wira, the radio went: I can almost see it, that dream i'm dreeaaaaaming"

I froze for like 10 seconds and I wanted to laugh so badly but my mum was on the phone. The minute we reached home, I ran upstairs and told Ajim and we laughed together.

Aih.

Anyway, yesterday I went for a facial at Aster Spring.My God. Might as well just kill me that let me go through the blackhead extraction whatever progress. It was a whole lotta pain! But you know, I'm me, so I did my hardest not to cry but you know, at certain sensitive areas of the face, I teared up a little bit. But I didn't like BAWL. Heee~

Uhmmm... Basically, that's all the updates that I have right now. But, these two are great. And if you like the new song I've put on the blog, [ Demi Lovato - Catch Me ] check this following video out. Even if you don't like the song but appreciate good singers, just watch it anyway.

See yaaah!

p/s: Like the new layout? =D I know it's a little "faded" but it's sweet. I like it. =D


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12:16 pm
On the Brightside


This video is like superduper comel! =D It's NeverShoutNever's On The Brightside. Even if you don't like him, just watch the video. =)))

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12:43 am
AAAAAH! Steve Appleton + Cash Cash = awesomeness to the power of 12 billion.

Ok, I'll sleep now.

Update more later in broad daylight.

CIAO!

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Sunday, August 23, 2009 10:10 pm

whatthehell! TayLau and TaySwift? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Dammit. Faster finish FILMING 'Valentine's Day' or I'll get uberly jealous. Don't do this to me TayLau! DONT.DO.IT.



Oh, Taylor. You're mighty fine. =)

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9:47 pm
Ok, this is sad.

My room is messy. I am the hurricane that went through it.

There is a crack in my wall. A really BIG ONE. Maybe it's just the paint. Who knows?

I've run out of books to read.

Sam the Sam might be going to RMC next year [NOOOOO!]

Two nights ago, I dreamt about..... a guy in my tuition yang hot sangat. I dreamt that we were together but his grandma has cancer. [How screwed up does that sound?]

I wanna watch Up and District 9 and Aliens in the Attic and Bandslam.

I still haven't found a charger for my old phone.

I'm resisting the urge to eat Airheads tonight. I ate four squares of dark chocolate and a tall, fat glass of Ribena earlier.

I've grown fatter.

My Taylor Lautner obsession is increasing.

I have writer's block. I can't finish the songs I started.

I have yet to improve on my guitar-playing skills.

Merde.

Merde, indeed.

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Saturday, August 22, 2009 10:06 pm
Got Dynamite is a pretty awesome song. Anyway. First day of Puasa went well. To top it all off, I bought Seventeen Malaysia and Girlfriend Mag today! Yayy!

And I have a secondary number now. U.O.X. Waheyy! Now I can text celcom people with THAT number. =D Basically the whole family is Celcom-ated now.

=))


UNFORTUNATELY, I'm using it with my old phone. The battery's long dead and gone. The charger is nowhere to be found. I'm helpless now.

*sigh*

Oh well, bye all. I doubt anyone is reading this anyway. Buang masa tulis kan? =(

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3:22 pm
Puasa is hereeee!

And I like ATL. See, Malik. I gave them a chance.

I like Weightless.

It's awesomeeee.

=D

I had Meehoon Curry for sahur today. Sedap! My mum makes the best curry noodles tau? Anyway. I just woke up like two hours ago.

LOLZ.

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Friday, August 21, 2009 10:12 pm
So, the madness has toned down a bit now that the holidays have rolled in. And surprisingly, no homework! [Like I even do them when I have any, right?]

Anyway, Malik Hisyam is back! And he gave me an entire packet of Mini Airheads. I couldn't be happier. Hahaha.

Me: OMG! Malik! You're back! Airheads takde?
Malik: You ni! I baru nak bagi surprise! Tak payah bagilah!

HAHA! In the car, I couldn't shut up about it for like 5 minutes. I think I drove Stefira crazy. And Fahmy too but he didnt say anything.

Me: Yaaay airheads!
Stefira: Masalah.
Me: AIRHEADS BEST!
Stefira: Still don't understand why they're called AIRHEADS.
Me: Oh well! YAAAY! =D

Unfortunately, we all know that tomorrow is the beginning of the fasting month! So, no munching airheads during daylight. Daaaaaayum. It's alright. I'll survive.

They're only 47 calories a bar, says the packet. Andd it's by the same company that produces Sour Ribbon. WHY THE HELLL ARE THEY NOT SELLING AIRHEADS IN MALAYSIA? Ini sudah melampau!

What else to write ehhh? Hmmmm. Oh right. We went hyper after eating a slice of chocolate cake each. We, meaning me, Rupini, Farah and Priya. Gila ohh. Macam2 we did.

Anddd my fingers are hurting like HELLLLLL. Kerana tadi ada guitar class, duh. Next week is my last class til like, 2nd October coz I'm stopping during fasting month. Clash with buka time and tarawih prayers. So yeaaaa. I learned how to play PWT's 1,2,3,4.

Teacher: Chorus....Hmm. Chorus ni susah sikit ah. Dua count je, laju gila. Memang maut ah! *laughs*
Me: O___O

It's okay. I am thankful to have a patient teacher who laughs at me rather than a temperamental, impatient teacher. Nasib baik I tak belajar all that theory shit kan? Kalau tak nanti I qualify to teach, budak main cam shit, I maki2 until he/she cries.

Haha. Always a reason to everything. =D

So, ok ok. I dah like shit sleepy. So, maybe I'll blog tomorrow. Maybe not. Depends on my mood. Seeeeee yaaah! =D =D =D

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Monday, August 17, 2009 9:59 pm
Famira

Scott, do you remember me? =O

Scott

yes yes

fahmy's cousin

lol

Famira
AHAA!

all these years i've been wondering

Scott

hahha

Famira

if you remembered someone you've tortured every single day

Scott

i got a good memory dont you worry

Famira

of my STANDARD 5 LIFE

hahaha

Scott

yea especially my victims ;D

Famira

damn yoou



Whoaaa! So the fellah remembers me after all. Hmmm. Anyway, rewind jap: yesterday was Melawati live! =D =D Thank you so much Zully for inviting me. I needed to get out of the house after all the exam and school drama shit.

And to Iman, who was my loyal comrade unlike KARIN FAM KYE RIN CAIRNGORM KARI who OVERSLEPT. Bugger. And now she regrets it. Padan muka! Go MTV World Stage without my blessing, macamtu lah.

Anyhow, reached KKlub at 11.55 and there were like only a few people je. I was like "Salah date ke apa?" and then I called Iman. 10 minutes later, she EMERGED from between the cars along Jalan C. Haha.

Ok ok, I'll skip the boring parts. Anyway, first up was Paul and this indian guy. They were greaat! =D Thennn, Zully. Yayyy! She wore boots and she dressed like a country singer! Hahah. Her performance was nice kott. =))

ZULLY YOU ROCK!

Then, some acoustic performances. Qhidir/Khidir[i dunno how to spell his name sorry] performed too. Looking back at SKTM2 days now, I CANNOT BELIEVE HE CAN SING LAH OMG!

Around 1.30 they stopped for lunchbreak, Iman and I went to Deen in Melawati to go grab lunch since there's nothing in KKlub to eat. Eesh. We reached KKlub back at 2.25. I totally wore the wrong shoes to walk that far. Shit!

In our absence, I missed Fabi's performance. But Pia Zahari was good! And The Alternate Zebras too! [so not just saying that coz Justin is my friend okay?] Compared to the 'bands' in school, - except for Chris, Sam and Amir- TAZ is like ten times better.

And then lastly was special guests Hello Planet Earth aka Scott's band who were 'fashionably late' *roll eyes*They were like super good lah! They're like Melawati's version of Arctic Monkeys. Woo!



*this video is the same song they performed yesterday but this vid is from SMKTM St.John Ambulance camp. All credits go to JUSTIN. =D


All in all, best gila kot. Just menyesal sikit I didn't record any audio or video of anyone. And I didn't take photos of anyone either. Or of me with anyone. So, yeah.

DAMN.

I had a Karin moment. Heee~~

Nites, all. See you Friday nite! =D =D =D

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Saturday, August 15, 2009 12:29 pm
This post right here totally cancels out my last post. Looking back at the friends list, it looks like I've jinxed it. Friends, enemies and strangers. I've been having a rough week what with exams and all. Then, I found out that even friends can't be trusted.

Exhibit A: Rupini. It's disheartening to hear what people have been doing and talking behind her back. Calling her things she isn't. Saying she's changed for the worse when she has been the same way since last year.

It breaks my heart to see one of my best friends go through hell. Betrayed by the people she thought were her best friends.

Is there anyone out there who's pretending to be my friend too? Honesty time people. Tell it to me. STRAIGHT.

Ever since my kindergarten days, I wasn't a likeable person. I was 5 and I was the tall one. I could read better than the others.I was The Freak. All the girls shunned me. I only had one friend. He, H was a guy and my first ever best friend. The following year, he moved to a sekolah agama type of kindergarten. I had no more friends. Then this new girl shows up and we're getting along fine til one day, she shunned me completely like the other girls did.

I knew the other girls told her not to be friends with me and it broke my fragile, tiny heart.

In Primary 2, I found a new best friend,AR. We went through a lot until she moved away to Puchong in Primary 4. I found new people, S and Z who had been my friends since Primary 2 but I didn't talk to them much. We became best friends right up to Primary 6. In Form 1, I started to drift apart from Z til we became just regular friends but my bond with S grew stronger.

But you all know how that ended. It was the second half of 2008 and the end of yet another friendship. She broke my heart and she still could text me later on, even early this year, to apologise. Haven't you heard, you silly girl? It's too late to apologise.

This year, in form 4, I thought I found new friends in the form of J and P. Apparently not. Both played with my friendship. I've never felt used and it sickens me that P can still smile at me 'innocently' as if nothing happened. When I told people that she did bad things, people got shocked. They thought she's the goody-goody nice person.

And so I appear to be the bad guy.

But I find it funny, that the class followed suit when I started to ignore J, removing all my ties with her. I did not lead this pack of bandits to follow my hating her. It's just weird.

And now people - so-called best friends - are doing worse things to Rupini.

Be strong, girl. I'll always have your back.


Shout out to Mazlan: I know you're going through a rough patch with so-called friends too, but just hang in there. You're stronger. Rup needs me more right now.

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Saturday, August 08, 2009 9:04 pm

-sigh- Indeed, life is a maze. One minute you think you know where you're going, the next thing, you haven't a clue where you are. I have yet to study for Penilaian 2. Rupini made me realise on Wednesday that I only have like 14 months left of school before it's all over.

I mean, where do you go after that? What happens to friends? Today I want to pursue multimedia design but will I still, after SPM and such? And things don't always turn out the way you want them to, no matter how badly.

Which brings me to love? What IS love? Affection? Care? From who? Does only love from the opposite sex/same sex if you're gay, count? What about your family and friends who love you?

Gosh. People always talk about love. If it really is love, then why do people break up and divorce? Or cheat? Explain to me. I don't understand. Maybe that's why I don't have a boyfriend. Because I don't understand it. Or maybe the reason is because I don't have a boyfriend.



There are good days and there are bad days. But my parents always taught me to be grateful. No matter how shitty the day is, no matter how much I get scolded, there's always a brightside to it. That's why I shut up. When I'm sad or happy or angry, I just sit there emotionless, most of the time.

And I've got awesome people as friends. We're crazy together, we laugh together, we cry together, we eat together. That's the way I like them to be. I won't change any of them. =)


This is true. I learnt nothing during civics studies for my personality and behaviour. Making huge mistakes, losing friends and coming to terms that you can't change the world are everything you learn from your high school years.

And then you'll see people falling in love and breaking up, and cheating on each other and whatever. No, you CANNOT learn about not making those mistakes from Chemistry.

This is also true. Which is why, Bryan forced me to promise him that I will ignore the 4Hemah pig no matter what the pig says or do. Actually, it's not fighting fire with fire when it comes to me and the pig. It's like fighting PIGS with fire.

Hmphh.

I love friends.

StefiraRupiniImanBryanJosephineFarahArdaAisyaKarin
AimiSyaaSuhaimieSyiaSuzanneBaoyuPriyaRoshanAanFatin
SaraKennyMalikMazlanWayneAllySherilCharlesAfiqCrystal
PhoebeFaraIyliaNaimMintHanaSherlinaNajat.

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*doodle pictures courtesy of http://notebookdoodles.blogspot.com

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3:31 pm
Four posts in a day. What a roll. And 3 of them are for other people.


DAMN.


I feel sad now.



FATINNNN. I WANT B!

B; the stalked one.


=(

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2:48 pm

Rocyie wong, please refer to the above title. Thank you.

I.WANT.MY.MONEY.


You psycho.
HOW MANY PICTURES YOU WANT ME TO PUT?
SERIOUSLY.
Ini.
Adalah.
The.
Last.
One.

You so owe me McD!

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2:42 pm
DAH!
This one only ahh.
Rocyie Wong. I'm gonna smack you.
NOW GIMME MY MONEY BACK!

=(

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2:15 pm

i'ma eat y'all both.
HMPH.

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Friday, August 07, 2009 11:28 pm
Ally. ^^ says:
*HAHA
*i'm still convinced you're an alien.
*of some sort.
*like the decepticons!
*xD
*except less robot like.
*i'll shut up and let you sleep then.
*night!

Oh Ally, how I miss you so! =)

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Monday, August 03, 2009 6:15 pm
I'm fasting today. I'm getting thirsty. So I hopped online and found this:



I love youuu Taylorr! =D

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Sunday, August 02, 2009 9:46 pm
I'm the kind of person who panics whenever I can't find my pencilcase although I just put it on my study table 10 seconds ago.

I'm not a smoker.

No way in hell, am I ever gonna be a drinker.

Same rules apply for drugs.

I'm a person who eats gherkins but not cucumbers.

I may be overweight, but at least I'm happy.

Are you happy, to not be able to eat, in order to maintain a size 0 figure?

I like photography and I want a DSLR

but my Momma thinks that my clunky digicam is fine and I should use it more if I'm really into photography.

I tend to hide my feelings if I'm upset

then cry myself to sleep at nights. It can't be helped. I'm sorry.

I am not photogenic.

It takes me at least 20 pictures to get a decent ONE.

I believe that I'm pretty.

Just not supermodel beautiful

coz they have plastic surgery, make-up, personal trainers and money on their side.

I like to chat non-stop with people I'm comfortable to be with

and sometimes, if anyone interrupts, i get annoyed because I still have a lot more to say.

Selfish, am I not?

I adore my little cousin, Anis.

She's the closest thing I have to a perfect little sister =D

I like cooking and learning new recipes

to eat and to give people. Watching their reaction is fun!

I also have a confession to make:

My written english is waaaay better than my spoken English

because I tend to choke up on words and my pronunciation is quite bad.

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4:33 pm
Guess who I met last night at Shangri-La Hotel's The Pub? Imaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!

Hahaha. =D

So, uhh. I'm off to go for a nap. I'll update LONGER soon. Taa!

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